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Checking into recovery... [Jul. 18th, 2009|04:04 am]
Diana
I looked in the mirror and finally said to myself that I needed to check into the program. Even my mother vacationing in upstate New York, August '03 who I hurt so many times, questioned me, saying, "Can't you quit by yourself?" It was so hard checking in because I would be saying I was a failure, falling way short of everyone's expectations. What would my family think? What would my friends think? What would I think? The shame was overwhelming. I would also be admitting that I had a drug problem. Me, a drug problem? Yes, me. I checked into the Asian American Drug Abuse Program's residential program in January of 1989. It was much harder checking into the residential unit than receiving outpatient services. It seemed so much more serious, which it was. There I was in AADAP's residential program, trying to recover from drugs and to find out what the problem was. The program literally gave me my life back. I was able to identify my issues and work through them in order to reestablish myself back in society. I think the biggest issue I had to work through was being assertive. I learned to assert myself. I had a hard time. My little family Christmas, 2003
time confronting issues, internal and external. I had a hard time saying no. I ended up digging myself into a hole I could not get out of. The residential program worked for me because I needed treatment 24 hours a day. My life was that messed up.

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http://www.drugfree.org/Intervention/Resources/Stories/Jon_Fukuda
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Up at 0300 in the morning... [Jul. 15th, 2009|03:34 am]
Diana
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[Current Location |Apartment]
[Current Mood |awake]
[Current Music |None]

I woke up and my mind just wouldn't stop thinking.
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Exhausted... [Mar. 12th, 2009|06:00 pm]
Diana
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[Current Location |apartment]
[Current Mood |exhaustedexhausted]
[Current Music |King 5 news]

Today I saw one client after the other, non-stop. Whether it was a scheduled client or whether unscheduled or whether it was having to meet with clients because I was CMOTD.
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Posting in LJ while at work [Jan. 20th, 2009|01:55 pm]
Diana
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[Current Location |my desk]
[Current Mood |relaxedrelaxed]
[Current Music |none]

The last time I posted in LJ from work was when I worked for DOC several years ago. I never would have done it while working for the county. Rex is off today and it's quiet.
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Passing time again [Jan. 14th, 2009|09:34 am]
Diana
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[Current Location |DESC's shelter breakroom PC]
[Current Mood |mellowmellow]
[Current Music |none]

I thought the shelter orientation was at 0900, it's actually at 1000. I just called Rex to let him know in case he was looking for me.
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Passing time [Jan. 13th, 2009|11:38 am]
Diana
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[Current Location |cubicle at DESC's 513 James office]
[Current Mood |mellowmellow]
[Current Music |none]

This am I had orientations at the Lyon Building and the Morrison. David and I will be meeting for lunch shortly. More later.
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Monday [Dec. 29th, 2008|08:51 pm]
Diana
[Current Location |house, study]
[Current Mood |tiredtired]
[Current Music |Johnny Cash]

Today I met up with Katt at Bell Square. Don't have too much to write about today, I'm a bit worn out.
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Christmas Day [Dec. 25th, 2008|12:44 pm]
Diana
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[Current Location |Hotel Zoso business center]
[Current Mood |goodgood]
[Current Music |none]

Wow, I heard that it's a white Christmas in Seattle for the first time since 1990. Today in Palm Springs it's 55 degrees with a chance of rain.

Yesterday afternoon we rode ATVs for the first time! So fun. I will definitely do it again.

I don't have much time to write because we're supposed to be checked out by noon.

After checking out we're going to have the special Christmas buffet at the casino next door including King crab legs!
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Day before Christmas Eve [Dec. 23rd, 2008|08:59 am]
Diana
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[Current Location |Hotel Zoso business center]
[Current Mood |goodgood]
[Current Music |none]

Yesterday Florian and I had breakfast at Sherman's then went to the Living Desert Zoo. That was fun. It was also neat to see videos of different animals getting exams at the veterinary hospital.

After the zoo we stopped at Westfield mall. I did some shopping at Macy's while Florian sat and read Barron's. He made me stop at Barnes & Noble so he could get that and the latest Economist. There were no other stores that I was interested in other than Victoria's Secret. The mall sucked, there wasn't even a Nordstrom. We had dinner at this restaurant called Babe's.

Last night we watched Snow Falling on Cedars. What a great movie. The night before we watched Hoax. I love movies.

Today we have no itinerary. We'll see what we end up doing.
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Finally made it to Palm Springs! [Dec. 19th, 2008|07:10 pm]
Diana
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[Current Location |Hotel Zoso business center]
[Current Mood |happyhappy]
[Current Music |none]

We're here now.
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