| Checking into recovery... |
[Jul. 18th, 2009|04:04 am] |
I looked in the mirror and finally said to myself that I needed to check into the program. Even my mother vacationing in upstate New York, August '03 who I hurt so many times, questioned me, saying, "Can't you quit by yourself?" It was so hard checking in because I would be saying I was a failure, falling way short of everyone's expectations. What would my family think? What would my friends think? What would I think? The shame was overwhelming. I would also be admitting that I had a drug problem. Me, a drug problem? Yes, me. I checked into the Asian American Drug Abuse Program's residential program in January of 1989. It was much harder checking into the residential unit than receiving outpatient services. It seemed so much more serious, which it was. There I was in AADAP's residential program, trying to recover from drugs and to find out what the problem was. The program literally gave me my life back. I was able to identify my issues and work through them in order to reestablish myself back in society. I think the biggest issue I had to work through was being assertive. I learned to assert myself. I had a hard time. My little family Christmas, 2003
time confronting issues, internal and external. I had a hard time saying no. I ended up digging myself into a hole I could not get out of. The residential program worked for me because I needed treatment 24 hours a day. My life was that messed up.
From
http://www.drugfree.org/Intervention/Resources/Stories/Jon_Fukuda |
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| Exhausted... |
[Mar. 12th, 2009|06:00 pm] |
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| [ | Current Location |
| | apartment | ] |
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| |  exhausted | ] |
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| | King 5 news | ] |
Today I saw one client after the other, non-stop. Whether it was a scheduled client or whether unscheduled or whether it was having to meet with clients because I was CMOTD. |
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| Posting in LJ while at work |
[Jan. 20th, 2009|01:55 pm] |
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| [ | Current Location |
| | my desk | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  relaxed | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | none | ] |
The last time I posted in LJ from work was when I worked for DOC several years ago. I never would have done it while working for the county. Rex is off today and it's quiet. |
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| Passing time again |
[Jan. 14th, 2009|09:34 am] |
I thought the shelter orientation was at 0900, it's actually at 1000. I just called Rex to let him know in case he was looking for me. |
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| Passing time |
[Jan. 13th, 2009|11:38 am] |
This am I had orientations at the Lyon Building and the Morrison. David and I will be meeting for lunch shortly. More later. |
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| Monday |
[Dec. 29th, 2008|08:51 pm] |
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| | house, study | ] |
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| |  tired | ] |
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| | Johnny Cash | ] |
Today I met up with Katt at Bell Square. Don't have too much to write about today, I'm a bit worn out. |
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| Christmas Day |
[Dec. 25th, 2008|12:44 pm] |
Wow, I heard that it's a white Christmas in Seattle for the first time since 1990. Today in Palm Springs it's 55 degrees with a chance of rain.
Yesterday afternoon we rode ATVs for the first time! So fun. I will definitely do it again.
I don't have much time to write because we're supposed to be checked out by noon.
After checking out we're going to have the special Christmas buffet at the casino next door including King crab legs! |
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| Day before Christmas Eve |
[Dec. 23rd, 2008|08:59 am] |
Yesterday Florian and I had breakfast at Sherman's then went to the Living Desert Zoo. That was fun. It was also neat to see videos of different animals getting exams at the veterinary hospital.
After the zoo we stopped at Westfield mall. I did some shopping at Macy's while Florian sat and read Barron's. He made me stop at Barnes & Noble so he could get that and the latest Economist. There were no other stores that I was interested in other than Victoria's Secret. The mall sucked, there wasn't even a Nordstrom. We had dinner at this restaurant called Babe's.
Last night we watched Snow Falling on Cedars. What a great movie. The night before we watched Hoax. I love movies.
Today we have no itinerary. We'll see what we end up doing. |
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| Winter Wonderland in Seattle |
[Dec. 18th, 2008|02:19 pm] |
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| | apartment | ] |
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| | mellow | ] |
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| | King 5 | ] |
I woke up this morning and peered out the window to see postcard perfect snowed surroundings.
Right now I'm sipping on some broccoli cheddar soup from Metro Market.
From what I understand, it's been snowing since 0600 this morning. Karen and I had plans to meet at Factoria and exchange presents but decided against it. The news advised against driving if you don't have to.
Instead I ended up taking the bus to downtown Macy's and back. I had to return a pair of jeans and then buy a gift card for David.
I'm worried about driving up Queen Anne hill to get to the house. My plan was to come over around 1800 to pack. I'll be staying the night there since we need to get up early and catch our flight. I need to figure out an alternate route that doesn't involve going up that steep hill.
Looks like the snow is finally slowing down.
Only 2 more days until my Birthday! |
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| Tuesday's post |
[Dec. 16th, 2008|08:56 am] |
There's something wrong with my phone. Sometimes it randomly just shuts itself off. It's been doing that more and more lately.
Yesterday I finished writing out all of my Christmas cards. Had to get them done before we go to Palm Springs.
Today I'm supposed to either go to my parents' house or meet them somewhere by Southcenter depending on the road conditions. We're going to exchange gifts.
I also have a consignment appointment at Take 2. So far I've made over $500 consigning clothes there, this will be my third and final batch. |
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| Finally done with school. |
[Dec. 15th, 2008|04:02 pm] |
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| | house | ] |
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| | hopeful | ] |
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| | NPR | ] |
Earlier today I was feeling a bit depressed, but I feel better now.
It's so nice to be finally done with school. Katt and I had plans for me to come over and exchange gifts but she thought it would be too treacherous to drive in the suburbs of Kirkland due to the icy conditions. The roads here in Seattle area are fine.
Today I drove up to Northgate to get some Christmas cards for special friends at Papyrus. They have the nicest cards around. |
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| Working on my 16 page legal memo... |
[Dec. 13th, 2008|01:15 pm] |
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| | apartment | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | calm | ] |
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| | Jennifer Hudson "All I want for Christmas is you" | ] |
I prepared myself by getting a decent night's sleep and buying a cherry coke at the convenience store next door. My cigarettes are in the kitchen next to my apartment keys for when I need to take a smoke break. Ha, I told Florian that I'd call him after my tenth cigarette and by then I'll finally be done with the paper. More like five. Right now I'm sipping on a double caramel macchiato from Starbuck's and trying to keep my energy level up. This weekend I didn't make any plans with anyone so I can get this memo done. This is the absolute last thing that I need to do for school and then I'm finally done with everything!
Hey, I just realized it's only 7 more days until my 33rd Birthday! Time is flying by. |
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| ready 2 go hm |
[Dec. 3rd, 2008|08:05 pm] |
i'm in class and am bored silly. can't take it anymore. |
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| Inspired! |
[Nov. 27th, 2008|03:32 am] |
It's after 0300 in the morning and I'm working on a poem about shyness. Where is this energy and inspiration coming from?
Happy Turkey Day! |
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| Election Day! |
[Nov. 4th, 2008|01:13 pm] |
I just finished going through the Voter's Pamphlet. I'm now on my way to the house to pick up and fill out my absentee ballot. |
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| Can't sleep... |
[Oct. 29th, 2008|12:21 am] |
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| | apartment | ] |
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| |  scared | ] |
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| | end credits for "Hostel" | ] |
Just watched the Quentin Tarantino movie Hostel! It wasn't quite what I expected, maybe not as graphic as the reviews made it out to be. The plot reminded me of a movie Florian and I saw together called Turistas. |
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| Another school night |
[Oct. 22nd, 2008|01:53 pm] |
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| | apartment | ] |
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| |  stressed | ] |
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| | SWV "You're the One" | ] |
I'm stressing out. I'm on number 9 of 15 of my homework assignment for Legal Research and Writing that is due tonight but I can't figure it out. I would have gone to the next question but I need to know how to do number 9 in order to go on. Ugh. Eileen from class will be calling me back when she gets that far on hers. |
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| Awake |
[Oct. 15th, 2008|07:50 am] |
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| | apartment | ] |
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| | awake | ] |
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| | none | ] |
I've been up since 7:00 this morning.
I guess I'm taking a break from the go to bed super late - sleep in pattern. |
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